Friday, December 23, 2005 / 0201
i. feel. like. crying.
of all days why now. this was never about us. stop being mean. go away. okay don't. i am officially a nutcase. i must shut up and get some sleep now.
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Thursday, December 22, 2005 / 1232
merryfuckingxmastoyou.
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Wednesday, December 21, 2005 / 0859
hey i read it and ive gotta tell you that one of the reasons why i'm doing so okay is probably because of you.
its quite stupid cos i think the more people think i'm not gonna be okay on my own, the more i'll want to prove them wrong. haha defiance. but, it made me realise that this could have possibly been always in me.
as in, im okay. and i can just be left alone whenever im happy/ sad or whatever.
sometimes i just need ping around to rant to. other than that..i dontknw.
im shocked at how strong or maybe just void of negative emotion ive become.
but thanks anyhow for showing me that its in me, capability of being independent.
and, if its meant to be, someday it'll happen. take care okay.
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Thursday, December 15, 2005 / 1504
screw what you said, it doesn't mean shit now.
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Friday, December 2, 2005 / 1113
You make me wanna be someone else
You make me wanna be somebody you would leave
And i could forget
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Thursday, December 1, 2005 / 2042
fuck man, i want you to like totally quit being nice to me right now. you know. don't you see how i'm pushing you away. can you just stop being nice so i won't have to go through everyday thinking of whether i do or not because i refuse and don't want to think about it anymore. it's killing me. i swear. it's like totally, entirely taking over my life. and it's making me hate everything. i feel like eating myself alive just so i can stop thinking about this stupid nonsense. and UGH
kay i want to just curl into a tiny ball and die right now :( i hate the way everything is right now.
,edit 2131
i'm sorry i did it but i'm really not any good at these kinda things.
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